![]() It has provided me with a safe place to be vulnerable and express my pain without the fear of judgment. This group has allowed me to connect with such beautiful ladies that, unfortunately, share my experience. Sunrise in Heaven put me back on the road to healing. By the end of that phone call, I knew I had found what I was looking for. In early 2021, that opportunity presented itself through a phone call I wasn't expecting. ![]() In year one, I went to three different counselors and two grief support groups and although they were helpful in the initial stages of grief, I was still yearning to connect with individuals that truly understood the pain of child loss. ![]() The experience shared between ten women who were practically strangers just 8 months prior was cathartic, beautiful, divine, fun, truly amazing! By the end of the trip, we all knew what we had together was special.Īfter the loss of my son in early 2018, my primary goal was to get into counseling or a support group to help me cope with the intense pain of my deep loss. I truly believed this was key in the pursuit of PEACE - and Praise God, it was confirmed on the first group trip to Costa Rica. I wanted to explore other cultures and experience life as I never had. I wanted to hike mountain trails, chase waterfalls, swim in the bluest oceans, just as Ced did. I felt a strong urge to travel to the places he traveled because I believed it was the only way I could connect with his spirit and also connect to God. After Ced died, I knew that I would find my healing through travel. A huge part of this healing for me is the travel. Since I have connected with other mothers, it has given me a sense of hope and healing that I don’t think I would have found otherwise. Though your immediate family is grieving the loss as intensely as you are, there’s another level of grief that is only experienced by a mother. You realize that family and friends mean well, but you find yourself wanting to just be alone with your own thoughts and crying yourself to sleep. And then there are those that have experienced the death of a loved one (not a child) who try to compare their loss to yours. Nine times out of ten, you are more annoyed with the cliche phrases rather than feeling comforted. Some would rather you not talk about your child because they don’t know how to deal with it, or what to say. There’s an awkwardness when you are around others. Outside of your immediate family (spouse and children), no one can imagine or understand the pain. There’s a tendency to isolate because in most cases there is no one in your immediate circle that has gone through such a devastating loss. You lose all sense of self spiraling downward into the deepest, darkest places of your mind and soul. Your world literally stops as every part of the life you once lived shatters to a million pieces. ![]() I know from personal experience the depth of the hurt and pain. I empathize with mothers who have lost a child. I lost all sense of self, my faith, my aspirations and the will to live. My seemingly blessed life shattered into a million pieces. My world came to a screeching halt in 2019 when my youngest child, my only son, was tragically killed in a car accident on Mother’s Day at the age of 27. ![]() My world was/is my family my life revolved around my children. I’d say my life was pretty ordinary with a sprinkle of blessings here and there, occasionally the blessings would come down like showers. Most of my important personal and professional decisions were guided by my faith. Today, 34 years later, we are very proud parents of 3 beautiful children and 3 adorable grandchildren. I married my high school sweetheart when I was 22 years old and we started a family soon after. My parents met when my father was enlisted in the Army and stationed in Korea. I am 56 years old, the oldest of four children born to a Korean mother and an African American father. Window.APP_STATE = JSON.My story begins and ends with family. All rights reserved.SupportTerms of UsePrivacy Polic圜ookie PolicyDo Not Sell My Personal Information Please enable it or install a modern browser that support JavaScript.ĬareersPartnersAbout usWhere to watchSupportThis feature is coming soon.We’re currently working on it! Thanks for your patience.About UsOur StoryLeadershipNewsPressCareersBecoming A CitizenResponsibilitiesPerksWhere To WatchSmart TVStreaming DevicesMobile AppDesktop AppWatch on the webAccessibilityPartnersDistributionContent ProvidersAdvertisers© 2023 Pluto Inc. This website needs JavaScript to work properly. ![]()
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